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I'll probably update this as I go. It's just nice to get some organization down and see what kind of things to expect. I'll delete things I feel I won't ever do, and add things I'm feeling more energetic toward. Things may disappear and then come back. I just never know. XD
Chapter-Length/Arc Type WIPS
- The Art of Self-Destruction
- Apple a Day
- Flights of Fancy
- Despicable Me
- Until It Breaks
- Wretches and Kings/Points of Authority/Through the Never/Across the Line
- Event Horizon - Zero Sum
- This Calamitous Life
- All This and Heaven, Too
- Upon a Star
- Play By Numbers
- War Without End - Megatron
- War Without End - Sequel
- Truth in Advertising Sequel - Raise the Bar
- Crown the Empire, post Salvage and Reign sequel, featuring Hot Rod(imus)!
- Play By Numbers Sequel
- Interwoven Final Arc - Inseparable
- Seven Days - Harpyformers BluestreakJazz
- The Beginning - Perceptor/Drift
- Number One Crush
- Remote control sex toy
- Alt-Mode Sex
- Mastermind Final - Bluestreak/Soundwave
- Crown the Empire - Postscript - Undaunted
- Behind the Scenes
- Ratchet/Prowl - petplay
- Bluestreak/Jazz - handfeeding and trust
- Wheeljack and Starscream, trapped in a cave
- Deathsaurus/Starscream, post DotL and AU
- Eyes on Me, Tracks/Sunstreaker
- Lost in the Echoes (BatFlash)
- Somewhere Only We Know (JazzSoundwave)
- One More Night (Hot Rodimus/Tracks)
- Barbarian AU, Starscream/Rodimus, Megatron/Sunstreaker/Sideswipe/Ratchet, Drift/Cyclonus
- TFP based Smokescreen/Ratchet, wherein the old mech is hot stuff, and newly en-Primed Smokescreen just can't get enough
- TFP/Rescue Bots crossover, wherein Heatwave learns he has two daddies, and boy have they been at war for a long, long time
- Sunstreaker/Thundercracker IDW-based, in which Sunny doesn't know how to seduce, and neither does TC. Awkward shenanigans ensue.
- Optimus/Megatron, in which there are few things that makes Megatron go off like a rocket, and Optimus' voice is one of them.
Summary: Starscream reluctantly endures Hot Rod's presence in his tower, while Rodimus seeks out distractions to pass the time, and makes a new friend.
( Starscream was an aft and rude besides, but at least he had good taste in fantasies. )
Title: Trial By Fire
Universe: Transformers AU, Sands of Fate series
Characters: Starscream/Rodimus, Sunstreaker/Sideswipe/Megatron, Deadlock
Enticements: Sticky Sex, PnP, “Barbarian” AU
Description: Desperate to prove himself, an unbranded Rodimus ventures into the Barrens in search of the Deathbringer, a solitary Seeker considered a dangerous challenge for any willing to take the risk, when a sandstorm and a trio of turbowolves turn out to be all the luck Rodimus needs.
For @theaircommand's commission that I let grow and grow because I was having just so much fun. :3
( Primus, but this was one story Rodimus did not want to tell. He was supposed to be challenging the Warlock, not getting rescued by him. )
Universe: G1, Behind the Scenes
Enticements: Threesome, Overload Delay, Aftercare, Sticky Sex, Master/Petplay
Description: Ironhide gets invited for another session with Bluestreak and Jazz.
( The message, when it arrived, was seemingly innocent, but Ironhide knew better than to assume anything like that from Bluestreak. )
June is for... I don't know. Recovery? Got a doctor's appointment Friday and maybe I can finally start getting some help for my health issues. I'm going to try and snag some overtime at work whenever it's available to clear out some of this debt hanging over my shoulders. Keep on with the diet and exercise until I'm at a healthy weight. Keep my house clean. Catch up on all the movies, books, and tv shows I've set aside over the past decade while pursuing the impossible. And I'll poke at words whenever I feel like it.
( More Debbie Downer below the cut. But possibly some explanations, too. )
Now, I loved X-Men: First Class and I adored X-Men: Days of Future Past and I went into X-Men: Apocalypse with an open mind, fully convinced I was going to love it.
It was terrible. What the hell. Absolutely awful. I looked at the clock, saw two hours had gone by and wtf, it wasn't over yet? That's how awful it was. So much of it was contrived. So much of it didn't mesh with the previous films. So much bad acting. So much shoehorning. So much blah.
And yes, I know I'm late to the party. I'm still catching up on all the movies I missed whilst shackled to my laptop writing.
On the other hand, Moana was fricking AMAZING and I've watched it twice already, I enjoyed Star Trek Beyond though maybe not as much as the other two, I didn't consider it a waste of my time like XMen: Apocalypse, and Doctor Strange was pretty bland and uninteresting, but I've never been a super huge Marvel fan anyway. -shrugs- Still gotta watch Assassin's Creed because woohoo entertainment! And I'm still trying to convince someone to come see Alien: Covenant with me.
LEGO: BATMAN WAS THE HIGHLIGHT OF MY YEAR HANDS DOWN.
Universe: All This and Heaven Too
Description: There are certain words Starscream doesn’t dare say, no matter how often he thinks them.
( He wishes he could be honest, that they could live freely together, as lovers do. )
Title: Show and Tell
Universe: Behind the Scenes, G1
Characters: Ratchet/Prowl, Bluestreak/Ironhide
Enticements: the usual suspects, plus sex toys, and washrack fragging
Description: It’s all fun and games, until the game gets boring, and then the fun can really begin. Monopoly has never been so saucy.
( Prowl made quite the fetching picture, trapped on the edge as he had to be. All Bluestreak could see was his back, his doorwings, the curve of his aft, and the subtle shifting of his hips, as he rocked himself on Ratchet’s thighs. )
In slightly better spirits as I approach a new month. Did not finish a WIP last month like I wanted, but still getting used to the new schedule and bouts of anxiety/depression.
I did review the Crown the Empire verse in an attempt to start writing the Post-Script. I've managed about 5K words but it's kind of like pulling teeth, so rather than force it, I think I'm just going to set it aside and come back to it again. I've a feeling what'll happen is I'll wake up morning and just be inspired, and then I'll spend two weeks writing it in a flurry, and then it'll be done. Better to wait for that then keep forcing out words that I'm just going to delete, I think.
I got randomly inspired halfway through last month to start working on the sequel to War Without End. So I have the opening scene and I know what's going to happen in the first one or two chapters, but I'm having trouble figuring out some plot points for later. That stalled a bit while I chew on ideas and figure out the best direction to go. It's going to be just as heart-clenching as War Without End was, I know that. Though I won't spoil the surprises. Just know I'm going to deal with Optimus, introduce many hatchlings and the new peeps that Ratchet's crew picked up around the universe, and answer some, if not all, of the unanswered questions left behind by WWE.
I have lots of pieces of Behind the Scenes in progress, so I'm going to work on finishing those up this month. It's grown a life and a plot, but I'm having fun with it so I think that's all that matters.
For May, I think I'll dig out the Harpyformers and see if I can get those moving again, because I really liked working on that series, and I'd love to get something postable ready to go. I also want to try and work on the last part of that Barbarian AU commission that grew enormous legs.
I haven't abandoned any of my other WIPs. I've just learned that I can't push things now, otherwise I scare the muses away. So I'll take things slow and steady. It may be years before I finish them, but so long as I carry a speck of interest in Transformers, I intend to do so. There are lots of things I still want to explore.
Universe: IDW, post-Dark Cybertron, ex-RID/TAAO, Play By Numbers ‘verse
Warnings: Sticky Sex
Description: Sometimes, you just had to take one for the team. So when an overworked, overstressed Seeker starts ranting to invisible things, his Chief of Security decides its high time he steps up to the plate.
( Starscream might not’ve been the leader everyone particularly wanted, but he was the one they had. He had the potential to do a halfway decent job of it, too, if he gave himself half a chance. )
So I'm currently working on both the sequel to War Without End, and the Post-Script for Crown the Empire, which is the combined sequel to Reign and Salvage.
Both of these series are ones that were left with a LOT of questions in the end. I intend to answer the "core" ones: i.e. in War Without End, "What to do about Optimus?" and "Who are these hatchlings?" and in Crown the Empire "where are they now? GrimStar and OptiWave edition".
But I also wonder if there is anything specific readers were wondering about these stories. If there are any specific questions or characters I can bring in or answer. Basically, I'm just looking to find out what/who I should try to include aside from the main answers I already intended.
So. Thoughts? Anything would be enormously helpful. :)
1) TONY STARK NEEDS THERAPY YA'LL -- Like not even a joke, get this dude a therapist and some medication and someone give him a goddamn hug because can't any of his so-called friends see that he's falling apart? Jesus Christ. That moment that sold it for me was the final confronation between him and Captain America and he threw up his hands, fully believing that Cap was gonna kill him and the stark terror in his eyes, no pun intended, it gave me the fucking chills and there he is, sitting in the ruins of the Avengers and it looks like his goddamn prophetic nightmare from Age of Ultron and will someone please just notice he needs HELP.
2) That kiss. Omg. That kiss. Why did they think this was a good idea? It made me really uncomfortable was what that kiss did. I knew, thanks to spoilers, at some point Sharon and Steve would kiss. But when the moment came, I watched it with a sense of horror that went kind of like "oh, look she helped him, that's great, oh god they're looking at each other. wait, is this where they're gonna kiss? but why? right here? there's literally no romantic tension in this moment? omg they did it. they kissed and why do I feel like I need to go throw up?" I think this is one of those instances where I have to side with the masses. That Kiss was both not needed and kind of gross and highlighting that she's Peggy's niece and then later they kiss only makes it more gross. DX
And it's not even a case of "eww het romance" but man, Cap had way more romantic tension with Black Widow than he did Sharon, and I definitely prefer the sincerity of the Cap and Black Widow friendship.
3) Clash of Team Titans. Basically Team Cap America vs. Team Iron Man. There is a difference here. Not just in composition but also how they work together. Like seriously. Team Cap had way better rhythm in terms of working together. They were already a unit, united. Team Iron Man was definitely one of conflicted individuals who had no idea how to be a team.
4) The quiet dignity of T'Challa has stolen my heart, good lord, I am so ready for the Black Panther right now. So. Fragging. Ready. He is handsome and I want to keep him and I don't know who that fierce lady is but I want to see her throw down with Black Widow, yes I do.
5) Rhodes hitting the ground, Tony's reaction, and both him and Falcon arriving too late was probably the moment in the movie that I felt the most emotionally gutpunched, out of all of the emotional gutpunches this film delivered.
I'm sure other things will pop up the more I think about it, but these are the things that stuck out to me the most. :)
If Cold Constructed mechs were sparked while the war was still ongoing, on either side of the faction lines, were they given a choice in which faction they wanted to be a part of? Or were they just slapped with a badge when they defrosted, sent to the frontlines, after being force-downloaded the bare minimum of what they needed to know?
How many mechs died without knowing what they were dying for? How many survived but still weren't sure what they were fighting for? Did they just stay in the faction they were sparked in? Were there defections? How common was that? Were they basically programmed/brainwashed into believing whatever side sparked them was the one they wanted to fight for?
Just food for thought and another tickmark of things that were Super Fucked Up about the Cybertronian War. Imagine screaming that "freedom is the right of all" and "till all are one" but defrosting newsparks into cold frames for the sole purpose of creating soldiers that didn't have a choice? (though I suppose the choice doesn't matter since they really expected these mechs to be cannon fodder, in that respect Optimus is no better than Megatron).
The hypocrisy burns, doesn't it? On BOTH sides.
I'll no longer be crossposting to Livejournal. I'll no longer be updating Livejournal. I'm still debating whether or not I'll keep my account, or purge it just in case. If I decide to purge, it'll be a few months from now, just so everyone has a chance to see this message.
Please follow me on dreamwidth, twitter, or pillowfort (if you were lucky enough to get in on beta). I'm dracoqueen22 on all of those platforms. Thanks!
Universe: MTMTE, Season Two
Enticements: Threesome, Sticky Sexual Interfacing
Description: Secrets lingers in the nooks and crannies of a mech’s spark. Secrets that once outed, are impossible to ignore, especially when it comes to the tangled affections three mechs share.
Commission for Ruenesca. I may have gone a bit overboard with it. ;)
( Sparks were complicated things. )
Universe: G1, Behind the Scenes
Characters: Bluestreak/Jazz, Ironhide, Ironhide/Jazz
Enticements: Voyeurism, Exhibitionism, Fisting, Oral, Dom/Sub
Description: Ironhide considers there’s no luckier mech, when Bluestreak invites him to watch as he and Jazz indulge in a very special kink.
( Ironhide would forever be proud of himself for helping these two get their heads out of their afts and realize where they could find exactly who they were looking for. )
Universe: IDW, RID, pre-Dark Cybertron
Characters: Bluestreak/Jazz, Sky-Byte, Blurr
Enticements: Sticky Sex
Description: There were all kinds of vices in the universe, ways to cope or forget, and Jazz had spent his nights in one berth or another, indulging in his. He never would have thought he’d find a kindred spirit in Bluestreak.
( Jazz supposed mechs hid all kinds of things behind their smiles. )
Not seeing much different in April than in the month's preceding. Getting used to working full-time is taking a lot longer than I anticipated. After working almost nine hours and then an hour commute each way, by the time I get home, I'm an exhausted lump that has no words in me. Not that I was really bursting with them before.
Writing time was going to be the weekends, but now I have to cram so many other things into the weekends -- shopping, cleaning, family obligations -- that I don't really have that either. So the projects I am working on are going to take even longer than I anticipated.
Still working on getting the commissions I owe. I finished the RodiDriftRatch one and I'm reviewing Reign and Salvage so I can get started on the Post-Script, which I suspect will be at least two chapters. I'm also working on a Barbarian AU fic that grew legs, but it's half done so far, and I'll keep poking at that. I have a few self-indulgent new things that I write when the ideas hit me -- Behind the Scenes, One Wish extras, BlueJazz bits, etc.
I also have plans for other series like a sequel to Truth in Advertising -- Raise the Bar, and I still want to write the Harpyformers series. I have something like 80K in mismatched scenes. I need to connect all the dots and make it post-able. I'll probably never finish this stuff in a timely fashion, but that's okay. I don't even have to post it if I don't want to. That's the beauty of it.
I figure I'll tackle those lingering WIPs one by one after I finish commissions. Things like Zero Sum, Apple a Day, the third part of Mastermind, Despicable Me, The Art of Self-Destruction, et cetera. I'm going to do my best to finish them, or at least provide some kind of ending, even if it's a subpar one.
I am officially on hiatus from Tumblr. I've been struggling to keep myself together enough as it is, and venturing onto Tumblr always feels like I'm tiptoeing through a minefield and while I originally joined the site to interact, I'm too anxious to do so now. Feels like people are waiting in the wings, ready to pounce on the most miniscule thing. Fandom is no longer fun. Participating in fandom is no longer fun, and if things persist the way they are, I won't even enjoy the source material anymore and that's not something I want to leave.
It's also disheartening that I try to open myself for interaction, but all I get are more demands for why I don't like a pairing, or won't write a pairing, or why I waste my time NOT writing said pairing and waste it further by writing a rarepair no one likes. And it's frustrating and I just don't have the mental fortitude right now to deal with that. Why are the assholes and the bullies so much more willing to be vocal? Ugh.
So for now, I'm no hiatus from Tumblr. I don't know if I'll go back to it. I don't know if I'll want to. I'm keeping it active for now because I have some fics I need to pull off there, and a few people I still keep in contact with through messenger, but otherwise, I'm off my dashboard.
Remember when we used to enjoy fandom just for being fandom? Yeah. I feel like an old person now. "Back in my day, we actually enjoyed fandom without having to defend ourselves for something as innocent as liking a rarepair. Wow, how times have changed."
So that's April. Full of thunderclouds and showers. Hopefully May will bring home the flowers, yeah? :)