A Chaotic Neutral

 No adjective this time, just July, because boy is July going to be a hard month. Financially at least. 

June was successful in many ways. I blew through the first draft of the original novella I plan on submitting, got at least one bit of feedback on it and am waiting for the second while I go through the editing round. Hopefully, I can get that polished up and submitted in time. *fingers crossed*

But I'm also having to close my Patreon. They are being selectively censoring of the content they allow. NSFW is fine, but certain fictional kinks are not, which they wouldn't even have noticed, if I hadn't warned my patrons like a good creator. My page was already marked 18+ only and all nsfw hidden behind a paywall, but they still have to think about the safety of the children who use their sight. *rolls eyes* Anyway, they wanted me to delete MOST of my content to continue to use their service, so fuck them and their censorship, I'm closing the whole thing. 

I'm going to hate the loss of that income, but I can't censor myself just because Patreon and all those other companies are participating in this war. So I'm deleting my Patreon as of today. 

It's also a hard month financially IRL. Losing a bonus from my IRL job through no fault of my own set me back, and it's been a hard struggle to keep my head above water. So July is a month of doing all the commissions I can, as well as selling toys, to try and boost my income as much as possible. 

I've got six commissions left, so I'm definitely tackling as many of those during this month as I can. Started on one, plotting on another, plotting on a third. Maybe I can get half of them done and keep on trucking. I'm ready to start knuckling down and putting serious work into my original stories, but I gotta knock out these commissions first. 

In free time, if I've got any, I'll probably be trying to work on either my Critical Role fic "Bloodlines" or finishing up Despicable Me as the last part of my Once Burned TFP series. 

*fingers crossed*

As always, if you have any questions or curiosities, feel free to give me a poke! 

So January was a month. A very, very busy one. Lost some time there in the middle for a vacation, but it was worth it. I definitely needed the time away, and I got to leave the country for the first time, and it was a great experience. 

I have not accomplished any of my fic goals yet, but I don't despair. There's still time!

I did, however, accomplish some other things. I watched several new movies (the 2017 Beauty and the Beast and Coco to name a couple) and I finished reading Terry Pratchett's Men At Arms, plus comic called Strange Lore that I supported through a Kickstarter. So yay for that. 

Goals for February are pretty gentle since it's a shorter month. Wanna finish at least two commissions on my list, I want to participate in the FJolly week, I need to edit my last zine contribution fic, and I want to finish Uncharted Territory Part One because I miss my harpies. XD

And somewhere in there, I'll celebrate my birthday I guess. lol

Other than that, I'll work on more fics here and there, but those are definitely my focuses.  

Hope everyone has a happy February! 

 A day late and a dollar short, but better late than never, right? Life's been so busy lately, I feel like I'm treading water in a river that's steadily rushing downstream toward a giant waterfall. 

(with rocks at the bottom of course)

(bring it on)

So August is for doggedly working on this list of commissions and trying to finish as much as I can. I'll take a break mid-month for a wee vacation, and spend a week working on my own projects, just like I did in July. 

Commission project wise, seems like August is the month of Ratchet/Deadlock and Cyclonus/Whirl/Tailgate. Both are pretty lengthy, so I suspect they'll take the whole month. 

Personal project wise, I like to wait until the moment strikes to see what the muses wanna work on. I suspect they're leaning toward All the Queen's Treasure or Raise the Bar. I've got a hankering for either Insecticon action or some StarBlurr lovin'. lol

For funsies, I've not been reading much original novels, but I'm trying to get back on that. I have, forever, nearly demolished my stack of comics finally. It's only taken forever. I get so behind so easily. It doesn't help that I'm simultaneously addicted to Critical Role and Supernatural, and I keep flipflopping between the two fandoms for fanfic reading. They're dragging me under...

Anyway, that's August. I'm going to keep on trucking and hopefully make some progress. 

Cheers! 

 February was definitely a month of anxious change, and March will find me learning to settle into this new job and finding a new rhythm. I suspect the anxiety is going to linger until I get more confident. 

I'm back to that writer's block. I don't have any words. And I feel kind of... empty inside right now. Hard to get excited or interested in anything right now, which is making it doubly hard for those words to come. 

Commissions are still closed. I have a few that I owe, including the Postscript for Crown the Empire and the edits for a Ratchet/Drift/Rodimus, and I'll keep poking at those. I also have a Barbarian AU Commission that I need to finish. I have a few personal projects I might poke at, see if I can find the original enthusiasm I had for them. And of course, all of those WIPs lingering. 

Careful observers might note that I've marked several things on AO3 as complete now. They were usually ficlet collections or in the case of "A Happy Bottom" things that were always meant to be 'as inspiration strikes'. I'm marking them as complete because I don't know if I'll get inspired to add to them again. I deleted a couple original fics from there as well. 

If you've been looking to buy any of my published works, now's the time. By the end of March, I plan to unpublish all of them and tuck them away until I have both time and inspiration to actually give my original fiction the attention it deserves, along with promoting it and such. All of my original fic blogs are going on hiatus, too. If you continue to see A Royal Pursuit published anywhere, please don't buy it. My publisher went out of business and I have not received, nor will I receive, any royalties from the sale of that short story. 

March will still see some updates. I've been writing some things here and there, and polishing up the last of some things I wrote before the writer's block swallowed me whole. It'll probably be in huge update dumps though because I'm trying not to let disappointment set in. That's another story altogether though. 

Otherwise, it's all the same. Kinda sorta on hiatus. Nothing is abandoned. Nothing is up for adoption. Though there's a good chance fic ideas that I never wrote, or never started posting and only half-wrote, won't ever see the light of day. Still too early to say. 

Anyhow, massive thanks to people who are sticking with me through this... whatever this period is. I still hope that the muses come back because I know how frustrating and disappointing it is to be left with unfinished stories. 

See you next month!